Sunday, August 31, 2014

50 Shades of Grey (It's Not What You Think)

I feel like my head is going to explode today. Not because it hurts. I don't have a headache. I'm tired, mentally. My brain is exhausted. I'm only a short putt to fruitcake. Seriously. Yes, I'm completely aware that I have been a short putt to fruitcake for years. Within the last two weeks, I have inched closer (if that is even possible). 

Here's the really awful part:

I'm whining about being stressed and there are folks that are far worse off than my little penny ante mental misery. 

My lovely friend once said, "you've got to stay prayed up!" How right she is. 

All of the above was written last night. I just didn't feel like finishing. Do you ever just get tired of feeling? Of emotions? They're so irritating sometimes. As much as I love color, every now & then, I think I'd rather just be grey. Not bright, not dull, just grey.

I get tired of people & the false way they present themselves. I get tired of social media; not because I don't like it, but because with all the wonderful connections to wonderful people it provides, it also provides a destructive outlet for some. I get tired of not being able to turn the switch off on my mind. I get tired of adult bully's & the fact that they're raising their children to be the same way & then, wonder why they act that way. I get tired of being the bad cop. I get tired of seeing the prices of everything we 'have' to have shoot through the roof, especially heating fuel during  the winter & of course, the gas we run our car with, on any day of the week. I get tired of folks & their unwillingness to learn. I get tired of people bashing our president. I get tired of how easy it is for someone to speak with a forked tongue.

The devil loves to fish in troubled waters. 
                   --John Trapp


  1. I nod in understanding. I sigh in relation... and I pray with hope that you embrace the grey while it is here and return to your beautiful colors when it is time. xxoo

    1. I have. I had an awesome afternoon (alone). I know you understand. Color is just who I am. Grey is who I need to be only sometimes :) Thank you for your kind words. I have been such a Growly Gus. I don't like it.