Four Glorious Years

Four years ago today, I detached myself from a habit I thought I was unable to live without. I was a complete mess and so was my life. I'm not saying it was easy. In the beginning, it certainly wasn't easy at all;  but I'm proof that you can. 

I am openly honest about my former drug addiction and I have no desire to be otherwise. If you're interested in judging, that's you and Your Walk. I am completely comfortable with who I am, who I was and who I strive to be. I always say this because it's true: 

If I'd not been there, I wouldn't be here. That's my motto, I guess you'd say.

Honesty is an important step for my recovery. I'm not exactly sure how the 12 steps work, but my steps have been honesty and support from those I love. Unfortunately, along my way there have been looks of disbelief and judgement; which I'm sure happens to everyone to who makes a change in their lives. For some reason, people tend to judge that that they do not understand or are unwilling to remove from their lives.

I wish I could wrap my arms around every one that experiences this pain in their life and tell them, it gets better. It gets easier. It gets glorious! 

I want so badly to be a recovery advocate. I want to shout my story from the rooftops and help those that need it. Sadly, I know from my own recovery, you have to have the "want to" before anything changes. I struggled with drug and alcohol addiction in some form or another from 15 years old. I am now 32 years old and completely drug and alcohol free! So, when i say life is glorious, that's an understatement. 

If you read this and have any suggestions on how I may go about being a recovery advocate, please feel free to comment here. Also, feel free to share this publicly or privately to anyone you feel may need to hear this! SUPPORT IS KEY!

"We're Truth Tellers here."

A friend of mine from my childhood made this statement regarding being honest with her children and it is a wonderful foundation for a relationship with your child, spouse, family and friends. If there is no trust, then you have nothing.

I prefer to be a truth teller myself. I haven't always been a hunnerd (yes, I know this is not the correct spelling) percent Truth Teller, but for the last several years, it just fits for some reason. What do I mean by hunnerd percent, you ask?

Even though you lead someone to believe something a little different than the truth, it's still a lie. Let's not act like we all haven't been guilty of this from time to time. It can happen unknowingly or not. "The dishes can wait until in the morning. I'm tired." Whoops, there goes a lie. Chances are, I'm just lazy.

I tell the truth. If you don't want to know, please don't ask me. From me, that's what you're gonna get. No matter who you are or what you've done, the truth remains the same whether you're honest or not. As a matter of fact, delayed truth is worse than the lie itself. Go ahead and tell the truth to begin with and save the hassle and the heartache.

I'm not an expert (we all know that), but I do try to live right. I'm not always Miss Congeniality, no one is, I'm human. I make mistakes. We all make mistakes. The great part is, I've learned from mine.

That's my truth. -xoxoxo-